“You’re too much,” he said.
“You talk too much, love too much, feel too much. And I don’t know what to do with your muchness.”
“Just love me,” she whispered. “Ï’ll always be too much. I know I talk too much but most of the times I’m talking about you. I know I love too much but that’s the only way I know how to love. I also know I feel too much but I wouldn’t have it any other way. Because in my muchness is my soul and when I love, I love with all my soul. So love me with everything you have. Love me and my muchness even if it’s too much for you.”
This is an excerpt from a book I’m currently reading, A Book I’ll Never Write by Devon Eaton. I always remind myself to start reading again like I used to, & this book was a perfect choice because I can only read something that captivates me & freezes time for a while.
A Book I’ll Never Write is a combination of intense poetry written over a the years by someone who was clearly deeply & unconditionally in love. I feel that this book is something everyone should take time to read, it restores a little faith in our generation of technology.
I love this excerpt specifically because I strongly believe that indulging in your feelings & expressing every single one is what ultimately makes each one of us unique & different. Personally I love it when I am deep in my feelings, whether its love or anger or sadness because sometimes its the only thing that reminds me that I’m human & alive. Sometimes we get so lost in work or studying that we forget how to feel, & its upsetting because the ability to feel is what separates humans from the other beings.
Have you ever been so present in the moment that you feel like you’ve stopped at the peak of a roller coaster about to plunge of the edge, but you’re halted there for a split second?
It’s something I live for. I cannot go more than a week or two without feeling lost & losing my sense of reality, because of the current situation I’m in. Being in a boarding school is one of the best things that’s ever happened to me, but it also restricts me to such an extent that I forget who I am & often find myself feeling numb & angry because I tend to distance myself from the certain things that make me who I am.
Reminding you to stay true to yourself & embrace every moment in which you lose yourself in your feelings, & appreciate that you.re lucky enough to experience such moments.
Be someone who feels too much or loves too much, the world needs more people like that.
Thank you for reading, & please keep on doing so as I have a LOT to say.